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what has he done that I should care any thing about him? The next evening he labored under very deep distress concerning the state of his soul. When he retired to rest he found that sleep had departed from him. He passed a wretched night. It appears that he has been a complete infidel, thinking that the Scriptures were only a book to keep people in order. While at the helm, before the watch he was in went below, the Spirit of God came upon him, and swept away all his doubts respecting revealed truth as with the besom of destruction. The time was now at hand when he was to be born into the kingdom of Christ. On Sunday morning, in his early watch, his mind was so agitated that he wept like a child. In this state he continued until about six o'clock, when the Sun of Righteousness arose with healing under his wings, and scattered that thick darkness in which he was so deeply involved, and he began to entertain a hope. I did not see him until Monday evening to converse with him. Brother Spaulding, who had been teaching him navigation, went, as usual, on Monday afternoon, to hear him recite. He said 'he had not gotten a lesson;' adding, 'I have been reading my Bible this forenoon, and conclude that I shall give up navigation a spell.' In the evening Brother Spaulding and myself visited the seamen in the forecastle, and experienced sweetly that it was good to be there. Never shall we forget this pleasant evening. 'I have been wanting to see you,' said Brown to me, 'to converse with you.' He wished to tell us of the change in his views and feelings. Some remarks were made by Brother Spaulding upon the prodigal son, and his return to his father's house. He then compared his case of the

returning sinner to that of the prodigal very particularly. After he had finished, Brown said with a smile, ‘If you had not said one fifteenth part so much I should have believed it, for my heart kept saying all the time that it was all true.' He was most violently opposed to us when we first left Boston, and delighted to ridicule us, regretting very much that he should so long be shut up with the 'holy brotherhood,' as he styled us. He said 'that if a man rips out a civil oath to ease his conscience, he will receive a maul at the elbow with it,' and added that we shall forever be tormented with these men. But his views were now very different. The things which before he hated, now he loved. Jesus became precious to him, the chiefest among ten thousand, and altogether lovely. I will just remark that, like all other men by nature, he (though a most openly wicked sinner) was building upon that sandy foundation which has ruined so many millions of souls, hoping to be saved by his good works. He thought that he should do well enough at last, as he was not as bad as some other men were, and that when he bought his grog he paid for it. But when the veil was removed from his eyes, and he was convinced of his deep depravity, of his lost and undone state except through the blood of Christ, and of his utter inability to do any thing to recommend him to the favor of God, he saw clearly what a refuge of lies all his boasted morality was. Time will not permit me to be more particular. Suffice it to say that, from all appearances, he is one of the most genuine converts I have ever seen. Truly he adorns the doctrine of God his Saviour, and has been useful among his shipmates. It would affect your heart to hear with what fervor he prayed before us for

those whose hearts remained a long time callous to every feeling. Never have I seen a person grow so fast in grace and in the knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ; and I sincerely believe that it is his meat and. drink to do the will of him who gave himself for him. "The next person whom I shall mention as having a hope that Jesus is precious to him is a lad of about seventeen years of age. His name is Learned. When he left one of his companions in Boston, he was told to take care that he was not converted by the missionaries. He said that he would risk that. Little did he think that a more powerful arm than that of man was about to slay all his enmity of heart and opposition to divine things. He at first ridiculed us, but at last began to think that religion was worth attending to. When he found how narrow the path to eternal life was, he left off reading his Bible, and had recourse to other books to see if there were 'no cheaper way of getting to heaven.' It pleased God to direct his attention to Baxter's Saints' Rest, which had been put in his hands, but he soon found that he had looked into the wrong book to obtain comfort; he therefore had again recourse to his Bible, which is now to him more precious than rubies. We often conversed with him, and he appeared to be convinced that he was a sinner, and that there was no salvation for him except through Christ. But he never felt his utter depravity until about the middle of September. The life of John Newton was blessed to him. A few days afterward I had some conversation with him, when he mentioned that before this period he had not felt himself a sinner. He knew that he was a sinner, but did not feel it; and, he added, there is a great difference between knowing

and feeling himself a sinner. I asked him how the Redeemer appeared to him since he felt himself a sinner. He answered, a great deal more lovely. He felt that it would be perfectly just in God to condemn him forever; that his own righteousness could not save him; and that, if he ever were saved, it would be a display of divine mercy. He said that he had given himself up into the hands of God to do as he pleased with him. He now groaned under sin, longed for deliverance therefrom, and felt willing to give up all for Christ. The things he formerly loved now he hated, and what he formerly hated now he loved. It is unnecessary that I should be more particular. I will just observe that he fell overboard on the 5th of October; and that hope which he had previously entertained enabled him to look upon death with composure, and feel willing to take his departure from time into eternity. He sustained no injury. He is now rejoicing in God his Saviour.

"This glorious work appeared to be gradually going on until the latter part of September, when the Holy Ghost came, as it were, with a rushing mighty wind, and bowed the most stubborn sinners before him. In less than one week I believe there was not a thoughtless sinner on board. Those who had heretofore turned a deaf ear to all our warnings and entreaties were now humbled in the dust. All of them are now entertaining the hope that they have passed from death unto life. As there never was an instance, as far as I can recollect, of such a wonderful work on board of any vessel, it will be necessary that I should enter somewhat minutely into a description of it. You may rest assured that there has been no enthusiasm, no, wild-fire in this work. It has

been carried on in great silence, with the still small voice of the Spirit. The Lord has shown that he can work without us. Five of the persons who were convicted this week were convicted when alone. I have been in revivals of religion at home, but never did I see such manifestations of divine power. I stood still, as it were, wondered, admired, and adored. We could say surely the Lord was in this place, and we knew it.

"The first mate, Mr. Day, an amiable young man, formerly a ridiculer of all serious things, and who long endeavored to believe in the doctrine of universal salvation, while on the martingale, under the bowsprit end, on the Sabbath, in the act of having the harpoon raised to strike a fish, was struck under the most deep and pungent conviction. He soon laid aside his harpoon. All his past sins were set in array before him, and horror and darkness overwhelmed his soul. The Lord was pleased soon to lift the light of his countenance upon him, and before the week was out he was one of the happiest men on board. He who never wept before, now wept like at child. He was so humbled in the dust before God that he felt below the dog we have on board. On Saturday his cup of happiness was full. He declared to me that he never enjoyed one hundredth part so much happiness. He observed that he felt as if he could go and preach the divine Redeemer to his former companions. It is unnecessary to be more particular. During this same memorable week, the second mate and clerk, who had been warned and prayed with in vain by us, were also humbled in the dust. It is astonishing to see with what ease the most stubborn sinner is bowed down when the Holy Ghost visits him. It appears that both of these young

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