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men have taken very great delight in ridiculing us. When the former came from home, his mother told him that she was glad he was going out with the missionaries, and hoped that it might be the best voyage he ever made. He laughed at her, and told her that they would serve to make him a little fun now and then, as they were psalm-singing fellows. His convictions were remarkably deep. When aloft among the rigging the Spirit of God came upon him. I never saw a person under deeper distress for so great a length of time. Truly it was with him a time of lamentation and mourning. The night of the 30th of September will never be forgotten by him. He saw that God would be just in sending him to hell; that he was lost and undone; and that there was no salvation for him out of Christ. After continuing a little time in this wretched situation, the Lord was pleased to visit him with his great salvation, and before the week was ended he also was enabled to rejoice in God his Saviour. The clerk also became unusually affected. There were some darling sins, however, which at first he was unwilling to give up. The Holy Spirit soon convinced him that they must be given up. The next day, after a solemn interview with him the preceding night, when I told him of the absolute necessity of parting with every sin before we could come acceptably to God, he was, I hope, convinced of his dreadful situation, and deeply humbled for sin. He now felt willing to give all up and come to Christ. week ended, was rejoicing in the hope that Jesus had become precious to him. The second mate longed for an opportunity to be ridiculed as he had ridiculed us, and thought he would rather part with his neck than pursue

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his old course of sin. On Thursday evening, the boy, a lad of fourteen years, who had been very thoughtless, after having been conversed with, became deeply alarmed about the condition his soul was in. He was told that it was to be feared that God had given him up.' These words dwelt with great weight upon his mind. He went to bed, but could not sleep; several times he got up, and went to the steward to tell him what distress he was in. About ten o'clock I observed him standing near my stateroom. I conversed with him, and found him under deep distress of mind. He saw that there was no salvation for him except through the blood of Christ, and I hope he has found him precious to his soul. He enjoys a sweet peace which the world knows nothing of; and, though he was despairing of God's mercy, or, rather, was fearful that he was too great a sinner to be pardoned, he now thinks, and, I hope, knows that the blood of Christ cleanseth from all sin.

"The cook, a black man, one of the vilest and most hardened wretches on board, and who entirely disregarded all the thunderings of the law, and every thing else which was said to him, was also humbled in the dust. He entirely disregarded every thing of a serious nature, and was one of the most notorious swearers on board. He would very seldom attend at any of our religious meetings. The time was now come that his stubbornness should be overcome. He heard two of the seamen talking about the operations of the Holy Spirit. He, in a light way, said to them, 'May God grant that the Spirit of God may light upon every soul on board this night.' This he did to make a little fun, as usual. He awaked in the night in agony. The Holy Spirit did light upon

him, and he was in very deep distress on account of his sins, wondering that God had not cut him off, and sent him to hell long before. He continued in this state for some time, when the divine Redeemer became precious to him, and caused him to rejoice in him. He declared that he felt as happy as he did the morning he left the prison in which he was for some time confined in France, adding that it was a bitter cold morning, but I was so overjoyed I did not feel the cold. All around him see plainly that he has been with Jesus. From a cross, morose creature, he has become clothed with meekness and pleasantness. I have repeatedly found much sweet delight in conversing with him, and now find that he esteems that Jesus as altogether lovely, and continues to run in the way of his commandments.

"On Saturday morning it pleased God to visit another of the vilest and most hardened sinners on board. His name is Parker. When we first came on board he became somewhat serious, and in a storm we had near the Cape of Good Hope he became so much alarmed that he resolved, if God would spare his life, he would do better; but his heart became more and more hardened. He even went so far as to say that he would take all the pleasure he could get in this world, and that if he went to hell he would bear it as well as others. He became a violent opponent of every thing of a serious nature, denied the truth of the Scriptures, and began to curse and swear at a most dreadful rate. On Friday evening, at a very solemn meeting, Captain Wills addressed the seamen in a very impressive manner, and afterward addressed him particularly. But it was all in vain. He conversed with him alone afterward, but without making the least

impression. After he had done, Parker went away cursing him for it, and has since declared that he blasphemed enough to damn a thousand souls. The time of his opposition and wickedness was, however, drawing to a close. The Holy Spirit was about to convince him that his stubborn neck should bow to his yoke. On Saturday morning I went into the forecastle to read a part of Baxter's Call to the Unconverted to him. Brown and myself prayed repeatedly with him. While I was there the brethren were in the cabin praying for a blessing upon the means used for his being brought into the fold of Christ, and I trust their prayers were heard. He was humbled in the dust before God, convinced of his wretched situation that he was lost and undone, and that there was no salvation for him except through the Lord Jesus Christ. He continued a little time in deep distress, finding that sin, though it had been sweet, now was like the poison of asps. After viewing what God had done for others, he had a hope that God would yet have mercy upon him. He was willing to give up all for Christ, and be his. The Lord at length appeared for him, removed his burden, and he truly became a happy soul. Now he saw very plainly that Jesus, whom he had heretofore despised, was altogether lovely. He truly is a brand plucked from the burning.

"Mr. Sparrowhawk was awakened at this time also. This man sailed to India in the same vessel with Mr. Newell, and we can not but adore Him who has directed him to embark with us. We have often conversed with him before, but without any effect. He was particularly addressed one evening in the forecastle. The consequence was that he damned the person who addressed

him. He continued hardened until this ever-to-be-remembered time of God's merciful visitation. While at the helm the Holy Spirit was graciously pleased to visit him. He was convinced of his lost, undone state, and that there was no salvation for him by any thing he could do. I never saw a man more completely stripped of self-righteousness. He said he tried to become better, but he found that he only got worse. After continuing for some length of time in deep distress, the Divine Redeemer became altogether lovely to him. He truly is a happy man.

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Mr. Pitts, a very profane swearer, was also brought to bow his neck to the yoke of Christ. He had been a little serious before, but was not willing to give up all his sins. He thought that God was merciful, and that, as he had forsaken some sins, he should do well enough at last. When the Holy Spirit came to him, he was convinced that this would not do. Conviction was fastened very deeply upon his mind, and he became very much distressed on account of his sad condition. He mentioned to Brother Winslow that one night he tried, when alone, to pray, but kept choking up. For two hours he was distressed in this way. He found he could not pray until he went to his knees and gave himself away to God. He was asked by Captain Wills one night if he loved God. He answered, 'I love him in every shape I can think of.' He also asked him if, when going to church in Calcutta, how he would bear it if he were ridiculed for it. He said he did not care if fifty thousand ridiculed him.

"The steward, who had turned a deaf ear to every call of the Gospel, had also to yield to the operations of the

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